Since the existence of Angy’s tea room, I don’t think I ever touched such a topic and never had this kind of conversation with you. Why? The answer is simple, I’m not into personal things in the blog or instagram, I’m always trying to be positive, share good vibes as those are the biggest influence, but of course, I have my up and downs, my nightmares and my problems.
But I was walking on the street tonight, actually taking out my dog and my brain was thinking about so many things about my business and the CONFIDENCE topic were always on my mind. I realized, how different was the perception of me from the other eyes, to the one I have about me and how I feel.
I don’t like to catch attention and I don’t really like compliments, as it’s a demonstration of attention. I like to be a little grey mouse nobody sees on the street. Of course, it’s sounds weird as I kinda take care of myself, I put make up and I dress up well. But yes, as strange as this could appear, this is real and it’s something that I don’t like about myself.
Through my photos or every time I meet a new person they always think that I’m very confident with myself, but that probably just a confusion with my positive and funny being. Cause, I’m not. I never saw myself beautiful and always missed that confidence in front of the mirror. But it’s not like, oh I don’t like my hips or eye shape or nose, it’s a general feeling.
You know, when you see a girl on the streets, she is not beautiful, she is not perfect but there is something about her. You feel how she feels, and she is simply confident, and you feel it.
I wasn’t like this before, and it’s something that I would change in me, I want to feel the beauty and confidence the people sees in me. Cause it’s amazing, confidence is a very powerful thing to make the people feels good, everyday from morning to night.
I realized that it’s something that I should work on.